Fast: Day 3

For the most part today was a good day. I felt like I was doing well at work (AISB), had a reasonable amount of energy and hunger wasn't getting to me too much. But around the time work got out my energy began to flag and I really just wanted to take a nap. Of course I didnt and just got distracted doing other things.

I am happy that I was able to think about food less today, though. I really focused on my goal from yesterday and it made the not eating easier. At lunch, I tried to remain focused on people's conversations and be more engaged in them. Yesterday, I pretty much just stared at people's food probably making a few people uncomfortable.

There were several things that I was able to focus on today that I think often times I ignore. Not that these things were incredibly important, but it did have a similar effect to going on a walk in the woods. When you reemerge you have a sense of having escaped just momentarily. Not to be too cheesy but here are somethings I noticed.

Touch - The rough spot on the top of my Nalgene bottle;

See - The wires that criss-cross overhead on the walk to Mariel's school;

Smell - The lamination that permeates all the school classrooms;

Hear - A truck that drove by the school during lunch.

I know a lot of these are trivial and can be easily dismissed as things we see, hear, or touch every day. But it can be almost meditative if you focus on it instead of just see it. Normally we experience these things in passing so it feels different to concentrate on them. These were the good parts of the day.

But there were some bad parts too that I think needed to be equally felt and expressed. Today I had some of the worst lower abdominal cramps I think I have ever had. I think I have been over doing the cayenne pepper in my juice drinks in attempt to restore some degree of flavor in my diet. The cayenne pepper is added of course to strip my insides of mucus build up but I think the amount I was adding led to the stripping of my intestines in their entirety. The pain would come and go but when it was present I was not fun to be around. I began chugging some water which an hour later seemed to help. Needless to say, there will not be cayenne pepper in my drink anymore as I think my intestines have had enough. Live and learn.

That's it for today. One more day down, one less day left to go.